There is a lot of opportunity in this life both to win and to lose. We win when we have a good day, when we feel confident and secure, when our kids listen and obey. We lose when we have a bad day, we fail over and over again, and the kids just seem to do everything the exact opposite of what we ask. I'd say that maybe this winning and losing is all subjective. It's all circumstance, and feelings. (Preaching to myself here) And it is nothing to stand on. Yet...it is real, and it remains that this is how life seems to go.
Raising these 4 little boys is the hardest thing I've ever done. There are not many "breaks" in my days. Not many moments to do anything for myself. But there are an abundance of moments to come to the end of myself. To be driven to my knees when, yet again, I realize I cannot do this on my own. I can't get through to them. I can't stay on top of the housework. I can't teach them how to be strong and confident in who God made them to be when I'm struggling with what that even means for myself.
When it comes down to it, win or lose, I want to choose to praise Him. Win or lose, I want to believe He loves me, just as I am.
My ultimate desire is to honor the Lord and what He did on the cross on my behalf. And may I strive (by His grace) to lead my children to do the same.
"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us..." Romans 5:8
HE already has the victory. We just get to stand with Him (ephesians 6) Praises to Him for that, since sometimes it feels like we are standing on quicksand!
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