Thankful for promises

I feel like a failure sometimes. Ok, maybe a lot of times. There's always something I could be doing better. I'm late yet again. I yelled at my kids. We lost or ruined something. We forgot something else (because I should be more organized). My husband feels slighted because of my inability to focus on what he says to me at times....and on and on and on.

I think this is why God has been impressing upon me lately that I need to soak in his promises. My tendency is definitely to "do" something when I feel like I've failed. Do something to fix it. Give me a book on how to be a better wife, mom, sister, daughter, friend, and I will eagerly read it (or at least start reading it). Give me a checklist of "10 verses that make you a better Christian" and I'll write those things out and even draw the little boxes next to each item so I can physically check them off as I do them. I've got scripture in my bathroom, my car, the kitchen, it's even plastered to some of our walls in our home to remind us of truth. Check, check, check!

Doing is good. It has its place in this world. Obviously God put us here for a reason...to 'do stuff' to bring him glory. But the Lord has been saying to me in so many ways lately to slow down the doing. To seek His promises, not dwell on commands. That doesn't mean commands aren't important. They definitely are! But for me, for right now, he wants me to be. He is teaching me to receive the grace. So I need to write them out, meditate on them, memorize them, and be fed the promises of God.

Here are a few I am very thankful for in this moment, this day, and in this week of giving thanks...

• The Lord, my God, holds my hand...and He says "Do not fear." (Isaiah 41:13)
• The Lord is faithful. He guards me against the evil one. (2 Thessalonians 3:3)
• He is making all things new. (Revelation 21:5)
• "He is before all things, and in him all things hold together." Colossians 1:17
• "The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end." Lamentations 3:22
• It does not depend on my desires or effort, but on God's mercy. (Romans 9:16)
• The Lord daily bears my burdens. And He saves me. (Psalm 68:19-20)
• Nothing is too hard for my sovereign God. (Jeremiah 32:17)
• I am precious and honored in His sight. (Isaiah 43:4)
• He will never leave me [or my husband or my kids or my friends or family] or forsake me. (Deuteronomy 31:8)
• He gives me rest when I am weary. (Matthew 11:28)

His promises are rocks to cling to. I need a lot of reminding. But every time I feel like I've failed, he picks me up and dusts me off and reminds me again of who I am and who He is. He reminds me of all I have to be thankful for. My actions can never take him by surprise. The circumstances around me cannot either. Nothing is off his radar.

So when I feel those emotions swirling up in my spirit, I want to remember to just rest. Be still. Rest in the promises of the Almighty God. He holds it all in his hands.

For this, I am thankful:)

Living in Him

Daylight savings time is not my friend. Every year it seems we have just gotten into a nice groove of the kids waking up a little after 7am, and then it hits. I knew it was coming, but somehow hoped this year we'd all actually enjoy the extra hour of sleep. It sort of took me by surprise that I was jolted out of bed by 4--yes, all 4--little voices at 6:00 on the dot.

You see, I make every effort I can to wake up before my kids. It's not at all something I do because of legalism or because I want to seem all spiritual. The Lord (and a dear friend) truly led me to this habit about 4ish years ago and ever since I have come to realize I need this morning time with Him. A chance to refresh in the quiet, to fill my spirit with the truth of God's Word and ask Him to guide my day, before little feet and loud voices come running my way.

I am so thankful for this morning time, but with four very young kids, it is not a guarantee. Yesterday was a prime example. I was sort of alarmed at my panic reaction when I realized I would not get a moment of quiet. I started thinking, "What if I can't get to my chair...I can't get my coffee and open my Bible before they get loud and unruly and someone needs to go potty (they would still be in their rooms until 7--rules!)...this day is totally ruined!"

My solution was to get in the shower to at least drown out the noise, and hope that it would be quiet when I got out. And God spoke to me in that time. He seemed to place the question on my heart, "Am I any less accessible when you don't get your morning quiet time in? Am I further away from you?" Of course, the answer is a big fat NO, but why don't I get it sometimes? I think I found the key is in seeking.

"Seek and you will find..." It is a common phrase found many places in the Bible. Maybe that is because I'm not the only one who needs to be reminded. Seek Him! Find Him! Seek the Lord in the morning quiet and in the chaos both. Seek Him in the laundry or bills piled up. Seek Him in the dirty dishes, the school books, the phone calls, the sickness, the family dynamics. Seek in the messy moments and the ones that go just as we planned (that happens on occasion).

"God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. For in Him we live and move and have our being." ~Acts 17:27-28

I will continue to be recharged through my quiet moments with God before this house starts buzzing. I know He will continue to provide those moments, though they may be interrupted at times. Lord help me figure out what it truly means to seek you in every moment of my day, to truly live and move and have my being in you, even when the morning quiet is scarce.

Turning 1!

Where has the year gone? I know that time flies as children grow, but seriously, the first year just zooms past. Maybe part of that is the slight fog of exhaustion we're in for 6 weeks or so after the delivery, or maybe just the fast pace of development, one milestone after the next. Whatever it is, we are so thankful for the life of this littlest boy in our family.

 

Joshua is very energetic (wonder where he gets that from!). And he is also very opinionated and feisty. Did I say feisty? I mean...passionate. He knows what he wants, and he is going to go after it with everything he's got in him. He's the one who was the hardest birth so far. He had the hardest time sleeping at night (until the Lord graciously taught him how at around 9 months). He is a stubborn napper. And he still has a very hard time every day around 5-7 pm!! But God makes up for all the hard parts in how amazingly cute He made him :)

He loves to play with anything that is not marketed as a baby toy! He loves the dishwasher, tupperware, crayons (eating them), paper (ripping or eating it) and just about anything in the bathroom (yes, he's the first one to actually stick his hand into the toilet and splash around--disgusting!). He loves being outside, even if it means his little knees get a little scraped up. He likes to climb just about anything. He is a funny eater, with black bean lasagna being his ultimate favorite so far! He also loves yogurt, and hates getting to the last bite. By the way, yes, this is how he ate his cake at his birthday party. Face first. I think he's a fan of frosting!

He's beginning to do that "baby language" thing, talking like we all understand what he's saying, with his hand up in the air for emphasis, usually. He's always calling for his brothers when they're not around. He loves to smile anytime the camera points to him. He is an awesome snuggler, and always hugs my neck so tight and lays his head down in relief when I pick him up out of his crib. He loves to laugh and be tickled or thrown into the air. And he loves, loves, loves for mommy to hold him anytime she's in the kitchen fixing a meal;)

 

We are so thankful for this year we have had with Joshua. May the Lord draw him close and may he seek after him with all of his heart, all of his days.